All of you people probably beee at Dance, Dance, so have a good time for me party hard. Earlier I put on my pretty dress and was gonna take pictures, but I couldn't find the camrea, so instead I just danced around in it, and I made little signs for when I do find the camrea, so that the pictures will be enhanced. Since no one is on, cause you're all gone, I'll post things that most of you wouldn't know otherwise, yes, sweet:
1.I think Linkin Park is shizzit
2.I look for ways to get myself hurt by other people.
3.I don't really think people like me, because I see how they, and myself talk about people who think we're friends.
4.I really do hate it when people l/o/o/k a/t m/e l/i/k/e T/H/A/T.
5.I want people to care about me as much as, or more then I care about them.
6.I H/A/T/E bathrooms, private, or public, unless the lights are off, candles are lit, Jimmy Eat World is playing, and I'm in the bubble bath, reading my favorite book for the... what is it now, third time.
7.I like my privacy.
8.I hate the silence.
9.I don't care if someone's yelling at me, but if other people are yelling at each other, I get scare, and I would really just like to run away.
10.I used to run every Wednsday last year, for about 4 months, but then I went to Vegas and got lazy... I also used to do 300 crunches and 30 push-ups (usually girly)
11.If I thought I could, I would've given up all my friends a long time ago.
12.I have'nt felt like myself in 2 years.
13.I'm psychotic, no, really, I need a damn shrink, but I know that if my brother knew, he'd never let me hear the end of it, he'd make fun of me for life... because he's crueler than me.
14.I feel really bad about this, but I don't love, like, or care about my father in anyway.
15.I've handled being away from my Mom better than both of my brothers, but I just don't find it that sad.
16.I wish I could move away from all of you because I've become dependent on you. I REALLY JUST NEED TO GET AWAY FROM EVERYTHING.
17.I think San Fransisco is a/M/a/Z/i/N/g.
18.I was sitting there talking to Aron about his new girl friend, and I asked him if she was amazing, and he said, no she's better, she's like no one else I've ever met before. I wonder if she knows, if he's told her, and if she believes him. Because sometimes you don't believe it, until he tells someone else.
19.I have more doubt than anyone else I know about Jesus. I really think the bible was just a popular story back then, and people are just s/T/u/P/i/D enough to worship it.
20.My favorite place in the world is any art gallery. Art galleries a/M/a/Z/e me, but I can't find anyone to go with, so I've only been to about 4 or 5.
21.I hate the cold. I REALLY HATE THE COLD. I'd take warmth anyday.
22.I'm scared for and off the people around me, every day, every second, and all of the people.
23.Music amazes me, I love it, it is my life.
24.My heart just jumped a little because I got an e-mail, and I thought it might've been from Aron, since we're fighting, I was scared what it might say. But it was a concert announcement from Ticketmaster.
25.I hate on-line mailing lists.
26.I have a supersonic, amazing, crazy good memory.
27.My perfect date, we would be walking, and to anywhere, it wouldn't matter, because we were together, but he turns to me, in the middle of this busy sidewalk, and says, "Dance with me." With this smile on his face, and this look in his eyes, that makes me know he's not laughing at me, but rather he's just happy. I'd laugh and say something like, "I can't dance" or "There's no music." ( I really can't dance) But I'd allow him to put his arm around my waist and press his body against mine, and just sway with the wind, and then the rain would stop, but he wouldn't let go, e/V/eR.
28.The things I miss most about having a guy like Aron as my boyfriend:
-The way if he was holding onto me (and he usually was) and I tried to walk away, he'd pull me back, like he'd just die if I walked away, or he loved me too much to let me out of his site.
-The way that if I was on-line, and so was he, he'd make me get off so he could call me, like he'd SOO much rather hear my voice then see the words.
-The phone calls period.
-Seeing or hearing "I love you" at the end of each conversation.
-The building up anticipation of seeing him.
-I never got bored talking to him
-He was the only thing I've ever had that made me nervous, but it could just've been the rooster crowing (analogy from a book, if you wanna know what it means, ask me later).
-just someone to be there, that I knew would hold me if I broke down in tears on one of my insecure, everyone hates Diane moods.
29.I don't remember which ones I've said, so I'll stop with the next one, because I like even numbers.
30.I'm a little obsessive compulsive, I won't build a snowman, because I already know it isn't going to turn out the way I want it to.
C/l/O/s/E/r by JIMMY EAT WORLD (DUHHH!) Everyday I get a little closer, dear
Will you love me darling when I get there?
I'll need sunshine, I'll need rest
Pour us whiskey, water, kiss
Remember me, she said smiling
Write my name somewhere safe
Touch and taste
Fades with space
I'll never be who you'll dream
Everyday I try a little harder, dear
But those things you do, I don't wanna hear
You'll have yours, I'll have mine
No one guilty, no one right
La la la
La la la
You'll have yours, I'll have mine
No one guilty, no one right
Everyday I get a little closer, dear
Gonna drive fast all night till I get there
Not much time we can waste
Nothing great left to save ioaeoiafeoi Edit cause I don't feel like a new entry, kay yeah, duh it is. fjdaiofenioa fj Well as you mostly know, going to California in the morning. Cleaned like crizazy today, about to go make a new xanga, cause I just thought of a bettereerer one. I'll post the link when it's up, yeah? okay sweet. I don't know how often I'll be on when in California, but just because I know you people will die without my beautiful face, I'll post some pics when I'm there, at least once. I REALLY want to volunteer at Waysidewaifs, Andi already agreed it looked cool, when i get back we're gonna look into it, if you feel like you wanna give back, and be a total caring person, like me and Andi, then call me when I get home, and I'll tell you about it and give you the number and stuff, or if you'd rather work with kids or elderly or something, I could give you info on some of those places too, kay? kay. VOLUNTEERING IS HOTT! okay new xanga be www.xanga.com/c_monwish_onfallingplanes yeah kiddos, talk to you soon, see you in 2 weeks. | 
